Baby Blues

So I guess I have the baby blues, I cry over small things, most of them are nothing too earth shattering either. I cry because my sister didn't come visit me in the hospital, hubby thinks I'm crazy but it hurts that she didn't come see me and my son.

I cry because my grandma had something to do this evening and I couldn't go visit with her tonight.

I cry because my daughter is at that age where you have to talk to her a million and one times to get her to pick up her toys and finally the only way to get her to listen is threaten to take something away from her.

I cry because my husband has to work until 9:00pm every night and then has an hour commute on top of it.

I cry because I have to lure my dog in the house with a hot dog because I don't have the energy to fight with her.

I cry because my mom has never held either one of my children, she has never smelled them after a bath, she has never cuddled with them and read them a book. She's never laughed at something my daughter has said or done. She has never felt the warmth of their breath on her neck or the movement of their chest rising and falling as they sleep on you.

I cry because I miss my mom - I'm 28 years old and I want my mommy like a 5 year old on the first day of school. I want to know that its all okay that I'll be okay, that she is proud of me.

In a couple of days everything should be back to normal - well my new normal.