I've noticed in the past several weeks that something is off in me, I'm not myself. I'm not an overly happy person on the outside, I have a lot of trouble trusting people and showing emotions of happiness.
I have two beautiful children, an amazing husband, a home, a family that loves me and I love them, a job and I'm healthy and so is my family. Despite all that I have I'm still sad, I find myself in tears while icing cup cakes, when I'm prepping a client file at work, feeding my son or just being with my family.
Tonight I was going to take some stuff over to my aunts house for her granddaughters. I wanted my uncle to meet my son since he'll be 8 weeks and he hasn't had the opportunity to yet. When I called to see if they'd be home I was greeted by my aunt who was very pleasant and found out my uncle is still out on the road and he'll be home Sunday. No problem - but as soon as I hung up from her I cried.
I need adult interaction, I need to spend my evenings with someone over the age of 3 (almost 11/5). My husband has been working until 9:00pm and he gets home around 10:00pm - the married single mom thing is getting old.
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