More greiving

The 10 year mark is slowly approaching, I can't believe 10 years ago I seen her for the very last time. I'm having a lot of trouble this year.

My grandpa has been in the hospital in another state for the last week, I want so much to drive the 4 hours to be with him but feel that since he's doing better he needs his rest.

My daughter is out with her grandparents, they went to a motorcycle show and parade. So its just me and my baby boy at home for now.

I have to find a way to memorialize my mom this year.....maybe a tattoo????

Its been a while

I've struggled with Post partum depression and its taken its toll on my emotionally & physically. Some days I feel like a failure as a wife and mother. I don't have the energy to do everything. I get the idea of doing a household project and that's typically as far as it goes.

I decided over the weekend I was going to get the kids pictures taken, its been 9 months since they were last done. I scheduled the appointment and took the kids by myself, while we were waiting for the pictures I decided to grab some lunch, I thought about McDonalds sure but I decided on Damons, we had a sit down lunch that was quiet enjoyable.

I have 4 weeks until the 10th anniversary of my moms death I'm struggling with that date but I know its coming up and there is nothing I can do to avoid it.