Harder & Harder

Today my son is 11 months old. These past 11 months have been the hardest. I feel like I'm falling apart more and more. I have really good days but I have really bad days too.

I miss my husband, he works so much that we barely see each other, its putting a strain on our marriage. We love each other so much but we have no time for each other. Its difficult to be the strong parent all the time. I don't tell him how much his working late bothers me - he is supporting his family.

More greiving

The 10 year mark is slowly approaching, I can't believe 10 years ago I seen her for the very last time. I'm having a lot of trouble this year.

My grandpa has been in the hospital in another state for the last week, I want so much to drive the 4 hours to be with him but feel that since he's doing better he needs his rest.

My daughter is out with her grandparents, they went to a motorcycle show and parade. So its just me and my baby boy at home for now.

I have to find a way to memorialize my mom this year.....maybe a tattoo????

Its been a while

I've struggled with Post partum depression and its taken its toll on my emotionally & physically. Some days I feel like a failure as a wife and mother. I don't have the energy to do everything. I get the idea of doing a household project and that's typically as far as it goes.

I decided over the weekend I was going to get the kids pictures taken, its been 9 months since they were last done. I scheduled the appointment and took the kids by myself, while we were waiting for the pictures I decided to grab some lunch, I thought about McDonalds sure but I decided on Damons, we had a sit down lunch that was quiet enjoyable.

I have 4 weeks until the 10th anniversary of my moms death I'm struggling with that date but I know its coming up and there is nothing I can do to avoid it.

Changes

So many things have changed in the last 6 months. My family grew by one precious little boy, my daughter has had oral surgery and started potty training with a little tough love :o) My husband and I have had a different kind of relationship. Our marriage is unique, we have a strong relationship, we love, we support but most of all we agree on 95% of the things that happen in our home.

Many changes and not much time

So much has been going on around here lately. My daughter is having oral surgery next week so I'md trying to stay relaxed about it and not stress too much about everything that will happen. My son was sick for 3 weeks, he threw up every single thing that went into his little body, turns out he had an Upper GI bug.

Still moving along

Its been a long time since I posted. I fell into a slump in my personal life, I had to be treated for post partum depression. I struggled to take care of myself and my children, I did what needed to be done and forgot about the rest.



I'm better now, a better person for it and a much better mom to my kids.



Baby boy is now 17 weeks old, he's 15lbs and wearing 3 - 6 month clothing. He rolls from his belly to his back and gets angry when he gets stuck. He sleeps through the night and rarely wakes up before 6:00am for a feeding. He got his first tooth last week, loves sitting in his exersaucer and Bumbo Chair. He loves Bananas and different fruits, he's not wild about Apples & Cherries or Banana Orange Melody......and he just woke up from a nap crying.